Choking On Salvation
Info
Release Date: January 3, 2025
Label: Sanitaria Sounds
All songs written by Shawn SychoSide
"Choking On Salvation" features previously released instrumental tracks from previous albums reworked and/or re-arranged with lyrics.
All vocals by uncredited studio vocalists except tracks 2 and 10; music and lyrics recorded by Emptiness In Everything and 4tun8, respectfully.
Emptiness In Everything appears courtesy of Unbreakable Recordings
4tun8 appears courtesy of Purple Rose Records
© 2024 SychoSide Music. All rights reserved.
Lyrics
DON'T TELL ME
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Re-arranged and adapted from the previously unreleased track "Don't Tell Me"
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Re-arranged and adapted from the previously unreleased track "Don't Tell Me"
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Don't tell me how I should be feeling
I’ve carried these storms alone before
When the night was cold and voices silent
And not one soul could see what was breaking
Don’t tell me who I’m meant to be
I’ve worn a thousand faces, tried on masks
But I found myself in shattered mirrors
In broken words I could barely say
I don’t need saving, don’t try to change me
I’m standing here for myself this time
This path is rough, it twists and bends
But it’s mine and that’s enough
Don’t tell me what to let go of
What hurts and heals is my choice to know
Don't tell me what I should remember
I’ve carved these moments deep inside
Both the light and the shadows
They’re woven in the story of me
Don’t tell me what I’m losing here
Every scar and every stumble taught me
Each bruise became a piece of armor
A shield I built, my own kind of strength
You see a flame and call it fragile
but don’t you dare think I can’t burn bright
I’ve faced my darkness, I’ve known its weight
I can stand in it without fear
I don’t need saving, don’t try to change me
I’m standing here for myself this time
This path is rough, it twists and bends
But it’s mine and that’s enough
Don’t tell me what to let go of
What hurts and heals is my choice to know
You see a flame and call it fragile
But don’t you dare think I can’t burn bright
I’ve faced my darkness, I’ve known its weight
I can stand in it without fear
I don’t need saving, don’t try to change me
I’m standing here for myself this time
This path is rough, it twists and bends
But it’s mine and that’s enough
Don’t tell me what to let go of
What hurts and heals is my choice to know
CONSTANT CALAMITY
feat. Emptiness In Everything
I’ve carried these storms alone before
When the night was cold and voices silent
And not one soul could see what was breaking
Don’t tell me who I’m meant to be
I’ve worn a thousand faces, tried on masks
But I found myself in shattered mirrors
In broken words I could barely say
I don’t need saving, don’t try to change me
I’m standing here for myself this time
This path is rough, it twists and bends
But it’s mine and that’s enough
Don’t tell me what to let go of
What hurts and heals is my choice to know
Don't tell me what I should remember
I’ve carved these moments deep inside
Both the light and the shadows
They’re woven in the story of me
Don’t tell me what I’m losing here
Every scar and every stumble taught me
Each bruise became a piece of armor
A shield I built, my own kind of strength
You see a flame and call it fragile
but don’t you dare think I can’t burn bright
I’ve faced my darkness, I’ve known its weight
I can stand in it without fear
I don’t need saving, don’t try to change me
I’m standing here for myself this time
This path is rough, it twists and bends
But it’s mine and that’s enough
Don’t tell me what to let go of
What hurts and heals is my choice to know
You see a flame and call it fragile
But don’t you dare think I can’t burn bright
I’ve faced my darkness, I’ve known its weight
I can stand in it without fear
I don’t need saving, don’t try to change me
I’m standing here for myself this time
This path is rough, it twists and bends
But it’s mine and that’s enough
Don’t tell me what to let go of
What hurts and heals is my choice to know
CONSTANT CALAMITY
feat. Emptiness In Everything
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Re-arranged and adapted from "Constant Calamity" from the "Demons Within" album.
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Like a storm that's born in fire, tearing through the night
I’ve been lost inside this whirlwind, nowhere to take flight
Raging thunder in my veins, I can't find the calm
Living in this constant madness, breaking every bond
Every scream’s a symphony, I’m deafened by the sound
There's no escape from chaos, no way to slow it down
I wear the scars of battles I was never meant to win
In this endless war inside me, I won’t be whole again
Constant calamity!
Chaos devours me!
In this hell, I stand alone
Flesh and bone against the unknown!
I'm a shattered piece of a violent art
Falling apart at every start
Drenched in the flood of my misery
I’m the king of this constant fucking calamity!
I'm a shattered piece of a violent art
Falling apart at every start
Drenched in the flood of my misery
I’m the king of this constant fucking calamity!
Like a beast that feasts on silence, I tear at every thread
Dragging shadows through the daylight, feeding on the dread
No horizon left to guide me, just destruction in my wake
Living through this endless nightmare, everything’s at stake
Every wall I built is crumbling, stone to dust it falls
This chaos pulls me deeper into its twisted thralls
No salvation left to find me, I walk the line alone
And in this constant storm of fire, I'll claim my broken throne
I'm a shattered piece of a violent art
Falling apart at every start
Drenched in the flood of my misery
I’m the king of this constant fucking calamity!
I'm a shattered piece of a violent art
Falling apart at every start
Drenched in the flood of my misery
I’m the king of this constant fucking calamity!
From the ashes of this madness, I will rise in pain
Baptized in the fire, I’ll embrace the flame
No peace, no solace, just the war within
I'll reign in this calamity, forever drenched in sin
And in this constant storm of fire, I'll claim my broken throne
I'm a shattered piece of a violent art
Falling apart at every start
Drenched in the flood of my misery
I’m the king of this constant fucking calamity!
From the ashes of this madness, I will rise in pain
Baptized in the fire, I’ll embrace the flame
No peace, no solace, just the war within
I'll reign in this calamity, forever drenched in sin
I'm a shattered piece of a violent art
Falling apart at every start
Drenched in the flood of my misery
I’m the king of this constant fucking calamity!
Chaos lives within my veins, a never-ending flood,
In this constant calamity, I’ll drown in my own blood!
I’ve been lost inside this whirlwind, nowhere to take flight
Raging thunder in my veins, I can't find the calm
Living in this constant madness, breaking every bond
Every scream’s a symphony, I’m deafened by the sound
There's no escape from chaos, no way to slow it down
I wear the scars of battles I was never meant to win
In this endless war inside me, I won’t be whole again
Constant calamity!
Chaos devours me!
In this hell, I stand alone
Flesh and bone against the unknown!
I'm a shattered piece of a violent art
Falling apart at every start
Drenched in the flood of my misery
I’m the king of this constant fucking calamity!
I'm a shattered piece of a violent art
Falling apart at every start
Drenched in the flood of my misery
I’m the king of this constant fucking calamity!
Like a beast that feasts on silence, I tear at every thread
Dragging shadows through the daylight, feeding on the dread
No horizon left to guide me, just destruction in my wake
Living through this endless nightmare, everything’s at stake
Every wall I built is crumbling, stone to dust it falls
This chaos pulls me deeper into its twisted thralls
No salvation left to find me, I walk the line alone
And in this constant storm of fire, I'll claim my broken throne
I'm a shattered piece of a violent art
Falling apart at every start
Drenched in the flood of my misery
I’m the king of this constant fucking calamity!
I'm a shattered piece of a violent art
Falling apart at every start
Drenched in the flood of my misery
I’m the king of this constant fucking calamity!
From the ashes of this madness, I will rise in pain
Baptized in the fire, I’ll embrace the flame
No peace, no solace, just the war within
I'll reign in this calamity, forever drenched in sin
And in this constant storm of fire, I'll claim my broken throne
I'm a shattered piece of a violent art
Falling apart at every start
Drenched in the flood of my misery
I’m the king of this constant fucking calamity!
From the ashes of this madness, I will rise in pain
Baptized in the fire, I’ll embrace the flame
No peace, no solace, just the war within
I'll reign in this calamity, forever drenched in sin
I'm a shattered piece of a violent art
Falling apart at every start
Drenched in the flood of my misery
I’m the king of this constant fucking calamity!
Chaos lives within my veins, a never-ending flood,
In this constant calamity, I’ll drown in my own blood!
RECOIL (COMING BACK FOR MORE)
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Re-arranged and adapted from "Recoil" from the "FIVExFIVE" extended play.
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The tension's building, can't escape the sound
Every move I make, it pulls me underground
The lights are flashing but I can't break free
Chasing shadows but they're closing in on me
Heartbeat racing, I'm losing control
Can't stop the surge, it's taking its toll
I feel the weight of everything I tried to avoid
But I’m coming back now, ready to deploy
Recoil, I'm snapping back in place
Like a bullet through the void, I’m picking up the pace
Recoil, I won't be pushed away
I'm rising from the fall, ready for the fray
Recoil, recoil, I can't be stopped
Recoil, recoil, I rise to the top
Feel the shockwave, it’s shaking the floor
Recoil, recoil, coming back for more
The pressure’s rising but I know I’ll fight
Like a wildfire burning through the night
The energy within, it’s pulling me ahead
I’m breaking out, no longer feeling dead
Heartbeat racing, I’m back on track
No more retreat, there's no turning back
I feel the rise like lightning in my veins
Recoil’s the power, breaking all these chains
Recoil, I'm snapping back in place
Like a bullet through the void, I’m picking up the pace
Recoil, I won't be pushed away
I'm rising from the fall, ready for the fray
Recoil, recoil, I can't be stopped
Recoil, recoil, I rise to the top
Feel the shockwave, it’s shaking the floor
Recoil, recoil, coming back for more
Every shot I take, I feel it ignite
Every hit I take, it fuels my fight
I won't be silenced, I won't be torn
In this recoil, a new me is reborn
Recoil, I'm snapping back in place
Like a bullet through the void, I’m picking up the pace
Recoil, I won't be pushed away
I'm rising from the fall, ready for the fray
Recoil, recoil, I can't be stopped
Recoil, recoil, I rise to the top
Feel the shockwave, it’s shaking the floor
Recoil, recoil, coming back for more
Recoil, recoil, I can't be stopped
Recoil, recoil, I rise to the top
Feel the shockwave, it’s shaking the floor
Recoil, recoil, coming back for more
Every move I make, it pulls me underground
The lights are flashing but I can't break free
Chasing shadows but they're closing in on me
Heartbeat racing, I'm losing control
Can't stop the surge, it's taking its toll
I feel the weight of everything I tried to avoid
But I’m coming back now, ready to deploy
Recoil, I'm snapping back in place
Like a bullet through the void, I’m picking up the pace
Recoil, I won't be pushed away
I'm rising from the fall, ready for the fray
Recoil, recoil, I can't be stopped
Recoil, recoil, I rise to the top
Feel the shockwave, it’s shaking the floor
Recoil, recoil, coming back for more
The pressure’s rising but I know I’ll fight
Like a wildfire burning through the night
The energy within, it’s pulling me ahead
I’m breaking out, no longer feeling dead
Heartbeat racing, I’m back on track
No more retreat, there's no turning back
I feel the rise like lightning in my veins
Recoil’s the power, breaking all these chains
Recoil, I'm snapping back in place
Like a bullet through the void, I’m picking up the pace
Recoil, I won't be pushed away
I'm rising from the fall, ready for the fray
Recoil, recoil, I can't be stopped
Recoil, recoil, I rise to the top
Feel the shockwave, it’s shaking the floor
Recoil, recoil, coming back for more
Every shot I take, I feel it ignite
Every hit I take, it fuels my fight
I won't be silenced, I won't be torn
In this recoil, a new me is reborn
Recoil, I'm snapping back in place
Like a bullet through the void, I’m picking up the pace
Recoil, I won't be pushed away
I'm rising from the fall, ready for the fray
Recoil, recoil, I can't be stopped
Recoil, recoil, I rise to the top
Feel the shockwave, it’s shaking the floor
Recoil, recoil, coming back for more
Recoil, recoil, I can't be stopped
Recoil, recoil, I rise to the top
Feel the shockwave, it’s shaking the floor
Recoil, recoil, coming back for more
THE UNATTAINABLE DREAM
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Re-arranged and adapted from "The Unattainable Dream" from the "FIVExFIVE" extended play.
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Like a flame I can't touch but still I burn
Every glance from you is a lesson I won’t learn
I feel you there, just out of my hands
But your heart’s a place I’ll never land
I’m trapped in a moment that never moves
Trying to get closer but I always lose
Your voice echoes like a song in my head
But your love’s a door that’s locked instead
I keep reaching for you but you're never close enough
Climbing through walls made of promises and dust
Your smile’s the light that I can’t ever see
Always out of reach, the unattainable dream
I dream of a place where you’ll let me in
But in your world, I can’t begin
I long for your touch but I stand alone
A prisoner of love that’s never shown
I fight through the silence, hoping you’ll hear
But you’re far away, though you’re standing near
I tell myself one day you’ll feel the same
But my heart’s playing a losing game
I keep reaching for you but you're never close enough
Climbing through walls made of promises and dust
Your smile’s the light that I can’t ever see
Always out of reach, the unattainable dream
Maybe it’s a love I’ll never claim
A fire that’s burning without a flame
But I can’t stop, I’ll always try
Even when the hope begins to die
I keep reaching for you but you're never close enough
Climbing through walls made of promises and dust
Your smile’s the light that I can’t ever see
Always out of reach, the unattainable dream
I reach for your heart but it slips through my hands
Forever a dream that I can’t understand
I keep reaching for you but you're never close enough
Climbing through walls made of promises and dust
Your smile’s the light that I can’t ever see
Always out of reach, the unattainable dream
Every glance from you is a lesson I won’t learn
I feel you there, just out of my hands
But your heart’s a place I’ll never land
I’m trapped in a moment that never moves
Trying to get closer but I always lose
Your voice echoes like a song in my head
But your love’s a door that’s locked instead
I keep reaching for you but you're never close enough
Climbing through walls made of promises and dust
Your smile’s the light that I can’t ever see
Always out of reach, the unattainable dream
I dream of a place where you’ll let me in
But in your world, I can’t begin
I long for your touch but I stand alone
A prisoner of love that’s never shown
I fight through the silence, hoping you’ll hear
But you’re far away, though you’re standing near
I tell myself one day you’ll feel the same
But my heart’s playing a losing game
I keep reaching for you but you're never close enough
Climbing through walls made of promises and dust
Your smile’s the light that I can’t ever see
Always out of reach, the unattainable dream
Maybe it’s a love I’ll never claim
A fire that’s burning without a flame
But I can’t stop, I’ll always try
Even when the hope begins to die
I keep reaching for you but you're never close enough
Climbing through walls made of promises and dust
Your smile’s the light that I can’t ever see
Always out of reach, the unattainable dream
I reach for your heart but it slips through my hands
Forever a dream that I can’t understand
I keep reaching for you but you're never close enough
Climbing through walls made of promises and dust
Your smile’s the light that I can’t ever see
Always out of reach, the unattainable dream
YOUR HEAVEN IS MY HELL
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Re-arranged and adapted from the previously unreleased track "Your Heaven Is My Hell"
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You wrapped yourself in this holy silence
Thinking peace can bury the scars
But every breath here feels like a chokehold
Every quiet corner, a knife to my skin
While you sleep easy, I’m suffocating
Your perfect walls are my bitter chains
I’m gasping in the shadow of your heaven
Your heaven is my hell
A gilded cage lined with broken glass
You cling to the light but it burns me alive
Every breath in here is poison
What you call salvation feels like a death sentence
Your peace drowns me, fills my lungs with fire
Your heaven chews me up and spits me out
You walk on clouds, I’m crawling on shattered bones
Every smile you wear cuts into my skin
This “paradise” you’ve built is a grave I can’t escape
And every prayer you offer tastes like ash
You’re blind to the wreckage underfoot
Blind to the blood that stains these walls
Your heaven is my goddamn nightmare
Your heaven is my hell
Each whispered prayer a nail in my coffin
The peace that cradles you gnashes at my bones
I’m choking on every word you cherish
In the light you worship, I feel the flames
Every calm you crave is my undoing
Your heaven rips me down to nothing
You call this holy but I call it a curse
Trapped in your blind devotion, I rot away
You say I’ll find peace but it’s killing me slow
A death wrapped in the silence you hold so dear
Your heaven’s light is blinding and brutal
It sears through every defense I have left
And I’m shattered beneath it, forgotten and alone
Your heaven is my hell
A noose disguised as a lifeline
What saves you drags me down
I’m bleeding out under this weight you call holy
Your paradise is my prison
The grace you hold close is the venom in my veins
In your heaven, I’m stripped bare, raw and broken
Your heaven is my hell
And there’s no way out from here
Your heaven is my hell
And there’s no way out from here
Thinking peace can bury the scars
But every breath here feels like a chokehold
Every quiet corner, a knife to my skin
While you sleep easy, I’m suffocating
Your perfect walls are my bitter chains
I’m gasping in the shadow of your heaven
Your heaven is my hell
A gilded cage lined with broken glass
You cling to the light but it burns me alive
Every breath in here is poison
What you call salvation feels like a death sentence
Your peace drowns me, fills my lungs with fire
Your heaven chews me up and spits me out
You walk on clouds, I’m crawling on shattered bones
Every smile you wear cuts into my skin
This “paradise” you’ve built is a grave I can’t escape
And every prayer you offer tastes like ash
You’re blind to the wreckage underfoot
Blind to the blood that stains these walls
Your heaven is my goddamn nightmare
Your heaven is my hell
Each whispered prayer a nail in my coffin
The peace that cradles you gnashes at my bones
I’m choking on every word you cherish
In the light you worship, I feel the flames
Every calm you crave is my undoing
Your heaven rips me down to nothing
You call this holy but I call it a curse
Trapped in your blind devotion, I rot away
You say I’ll find peace but it’s killing me slow
A death wrapped in the silence you hold so dear
Your heaven’s light is blinding and brutal
It sears through every defense I have left
And I’m shattered beneath it, forgotten and alone
Your heaven is my hell
A noose disguised as a lifeline
What saves you drags me down
I’m bleeding out under this weight you call holy
Your paradise is my prison
The grace you hold close is the venom in my veins
In your heaven, I’m stripped bare, raw and broken
Your heaven is my hell
And there’s no way out from here
Your heaven is my hell
And there’s no way out from here
COSMIC WONDER
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Re-arranged and adapted from "Kaleidoscope" from the "FIVExFIVE" extended play.
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Stars are dancing in the lunar light
Galaxies spin in a sparkling night
Meteor showers paint the sky so high
Cosmic wonders make me feel I can fly
Planet to planet in a cosmic trance
Orbiting Saturn like it's a midnight dance
Comets are blazing colors in the dark
Universal symphony ignites the spark
Shine bright, oh, cosmic wonder
Feel the groove, let's dance in thunder
Orbit stars in cosmic blunder
Interstellar love pulls us under
Intergalactic vibes take hold of me
Floating through the void, I'm wild and free
Supernova dreams light up my mind
In this cosmic love we've intertwined
Parallel worlds where our love flows
Mystic energy as Earth glows
We defy the gravity below
Come on baby let your love show
Shine bright, oh, cosmic wonder
Feel the groove, let's dance in thunder
Orbit stars in cosmic blunder
Interstellar love pulls us under
Shine bright, oh, cosmic wonder
Feel the groove, let's dance in thunder
Orbit stars in cosmic blunder
Interstellar love pulls us under
Galaxies spin in a sparkling night
Meteor showers paint the sky so high
Cosmic wonders make me feel I can fly
Planet to planet in a cosmic trance
Orbiting Saturn like it's a midnight dance
Comets are blazing colors in the dark
Universal symphony ignites the spark
Shine bright, oh, cosmic wonder
Feel the groove, let's dance in thunder
Orbit stars in cosmic blunder
Interstellar love pulls us under
Intergalactic vibes take hold of me
Floating through the void, I'm wild and free
Supernova dreams light up my mind
In this cosmic love we've intertwined
Parallel worlds where our love flows
Mystic energy as Earth glows
We defy the gravity below
Come on baby let your love show
Shine bright, oh, cosmic wonder
Feel the groove, let's dance in thunder
Orbit stars in cosmic blunder
Interstellar love pulls us under
Shine bright, oh, cosmic wonder
Feel the groove, let's dance in thunder
Orbit stars in cosmic blunder
Interstellar love pulls us under
LEAVE NO TRACE
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Re-arranged and adapted from "Defined Inclination" from the "Demons Within" album.
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Grit my teeth and push right through
No one tells me what to do
On my path, I'm here to stay
Knock me down, I'll walk away
Get the job done, leave no trace
Nothing's gonna slow my pace
In the end, it's my own way
Unstoppable every day
Obstacles will scream and shout
I'm the one they talk about
Eyes locked on my finish line
Won't back down, this dream is mine
Get the job done, leave no trace
Nothing's gonna slow my pace
In the end, it's my own way
Unstoppable every day
Whispers try to shake my core
Doubt will haunt but I want more
Build my armor, stronger still
Just one shot to climb this hill
Shadows fade when I arrive
Got the spark to stay alive
Rising like a hurricane
Breaking chains, won't feel the pain
Get the job done, leave no trace
Nothing's gonna slow my pace
In the end, it's my own way
Unstoppable every day
Whispers try to shake my core
Doubt will haunt but I want more
Build my armor, stronger still
Just one shot to climb this hill
Whispers try to shake my core
Doubt will haunt but I want more
Build my armor, stronger still
Just one shot to climb this hill
No one tells me what to do
On my path, I'm here to stay
Knock me down, I'll walk away
Get the job done, leave no trace
Nothing's gonna slow my pace
In the end, it's my own way
Unstoppable every day
Obstacles will scream and shout
I'm the one they talk about
Eyes locked on my finish line
Won't back down, this dream is mine
Get the job done, leave no trace
Nothing's gonna slow my pace
In the end, it's my own way
Unstoppable every day
Whispers try to shake my core
Doubt will haunt but I want more
Build my armor, stronger still
Just one shot to climb this hill
Shadows fade when I arrive
Got the spark to stay alive
Rising like a hurricane
Breaking chains, won't feel the pain
Get the job done, leave no trace
Nothing's gonna slow my pace
In the end, it's my own way
Unstoppable every day
Whispers try to shake my core
Doubt will haunt but I want more
Build my armor, stronger still
Just one shot to climb this hill
Whispers try to shake my core
Doubt will haunt but I want more
Build my armor, stronger still
Just one shot to climb this hill
IN THE SANITARIUM
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Re-arranged and adapted from "Sanitarium After Dark" from the "Not What You Expected" album.
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__________
Flickering lights burn shadows in my eyes
Whispers crawling, echoing from blackened skies
Rusty chains and broken minds collide
Sanity’s a ghost, nowhere left to hide
Creaking doors scream like tortured souls
Walls breathe secrets, leaving nothing whole
Trapped in a tomb where time’s forever still
The night devours, bending to its will
In the Sanitarium, after dark we’re torn apart
Madness spreads like fire through the heart
I’m a prisoner caught in this endless night
In the Sanitarium, sanity dies without a fight
Twisted faces stare from shattered glass
Voices taunting a future I can't grasp
The air is thick with the stench of decay
There’s no escape, no chance to break away
I claw at the walls but they bleed me dry
A cage of torment under a crimson sky
Lost in the maze of my own despair
Trapped in the dark, no savior anywhere
In the Sanitarium, after dark we’re torn apart
Madness spreads like fire through the heart
I’m a prisoner caught in this endless night
In the Sanitarium, sanity dies without a fight
Spiral down into the void I descend
No beginning here, no fucking end
Demons dance in the corners of my mind
Their claws sink deep, no salvation to find
In the Sanitarium, after dark we’re torn apart
Madness spreads like fire through the heart
I’m a prisoner caught in this endless night
In the Sanitarium, sanity dies without a fight
The moon weeps blood as the clock strikes doom
I’m forever trapped inside this haunted room
No more screams, just the silence of the damned
In the Sanitarium, I fall by my own hand
Whispers crawling, echoing from blackened skies
Rusty chains and broken minds collide
Sanity’s a ghost, nowhere left to hide
Creaking doors scream like tortured souls
Walls breathe secrets, leaving nothing whole
Trapped in a tomb where time’s forever still
The night devours, bending to its will
In the Sanitarium, after dark we’re torn apart
Madness spreads like fire through the heart
I’m a prisoner caught in this endless night
In the Sanitarium, sanity dies without a fight
Twisted faces stare from shattered glass
Voices taunting a future I can't grasp
The air is thick with the stench of decay
There’s no escape, no chance to break away
I claw at the walls but they bleed me dry
A cage of torment under a crimson sky
Lost in the maze of my own despair
Trapped in the dark, no savior anywhere
In the Sanitarium, after dark we’re torn apart
Madness spreads like fire through the heart
I’m a prisoner caught in this endless night
In the Sanitarium, sanity dies without a fight
Spiral down into the void I descend
No beginning here, no fucking end
Demons dance in the corners of my mind
Their claws sink deep, no salvation to find
In the Sanitarium, after dark we’re torn apart
Madness spreads like fire through the heart
I’m a prisoner caught in this endless night
In the Sanitarium, sanity dies without a fight
The moon weeps blood as the clock strikes doom
I’m forever trapped inside this haunted room
No more screams, just the silence of the damned
In the Sanitarium, I fall by my own hand
BLUNT FORCE TRAUMA
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Re-arranged and adapted from "Blunt Force Trauma" from the "Not What You Expected" album.
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Smash through the front, fists full of rage
Blunt force trauma, I’m breakin' the cage
Blood on the knuckles, adrenaline's spiked
I’m a goddamn beast, every punch lands right
No finesse, I’m reckless, wreckin' your crew
Rip through your chest, leave your heart in two
I ain’t got time for a motherfuckin' plea
Hit ‘em so hard, they forget how to breathe
I’m on a mission, fuck peace, it’s war
Every punch harder, 'til you’re laid on the floor
Step to me, you'll get buried alive
Blunt force trauma, feel the pain as I thrive
Blunt force trauma, crushin’ bones with a smile
Feel your world crackin', no escape from the pile
Skulls get split, blood drips down the street
I’m a goddamn monster, can't face defeat
Blunt force trauma, your world’s gone dark
I'm the bullet in the chamber, ready to spark
You want war? Then bring it, I’m cravin' the fight
Blunt force trauma, fuck around, lose your life!
I’m a sledgehammer swingin' through glass and stone
Blunt force trauma, rip you down to the bone
You wanna throw hands? I’ll tear you apart
Broke your whole crew just for a fuckin' start
I don’t need weapons, my fists are the tools
Blunt force trauma, I’m breakin' the rules
Rip through your chest like I’m tearin’ a page
I’m the villain you fear, unleashed from the cage
Bodies hit the ground like it’s World War Three
Every step I take, you’ll feel it, believe me
Turn your world into chaos, leave it in flames
Blunt force trauma, I ain’t here for no games
Blunt force trauma, crushin’ bones with a smile
Feel your world crackin', no escape from the pile
Skulls get split, blood drips down the street
I’m a goddamn monster, can't face defeat
Blunt force trauma, your world’s gone dark
I'm the bullet in the chamber, ready to spark
You want war? Then bring it, I’m cravin' the fight
Blunt force trauma, fuck around, lose your life!
Pain’s what I deliver, no peace, just fire
Blunt force trauma, I’m your one desire
Hit after hit ‘til your body goes numb
I feast on the violence, you choke on the drum
My fists are the storm, I rain down hate
Blunt force trauma, I control your fate
Crush every bone, leave your soul in the dust
You came for the fight, now you’re chokin' on rust
Blunt force trauma, crushin’ bones with a smile
Feel your world crackin', no escape from the pile
Skulls get split, blood drips down the street
I’m a goddamn monster, can't face defeat
Blunt force trauma, your world’s gone dark
I'm the bullet in the chamber, ready to spark
You want war? Then bring it, I’m cravin' the fight
Blunt force trauma, fuck around, lose your life!
Yeah, blunt force trauma, blood in my veins
I feed on the chaos, I live for the pain!
SychoSide’s reign, no escape from this war
Blunt force trauma, leave ‘em dead on the floor!
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Smash through the front, fists full of rage
Blunt force trauma, I’m breakin' the cage
Blood on the knuckles, adrenaline's spiked
I’m a goddamn beast, every punch lands right
No finesse, I’m reckless, wreckin' your crew
Rip through your chest, leave your heart in two
I ain’t got time for a motherfuckin' plea
Hit ‘em so hard, they forget how to breathe
I’m on a mission, fuck peace, it’s war
Every punch harder, 'til you’re laid on the floor
Step to me, you'll get buried alive
Blunt force trauma, feel the pain as I thrive
Blunt force trauma, crushin’ bones with a smile
Feel your world crackin', no escape from the pile
Skulls get split, blood drips down the street
I’m a goddamn monster, can't face defeat
Blunt force trauma, your world’s gone dark
I'm the bullet in the chamber, ready to spark
You want war? Then bring it, I’m cravin' the fight
Blunt force trauma, fuck around, lose your life!
I’m a sledgehammer swingin' through glass and stone
Blunt force trauma, rip you down to the bone
You wanna throw hands? I’ll tear you apart
Broke your whole crew just for a fuckin' start
I don’t need weapons, my fists are the tools
Blunt force trauma, I’m breakin' the rules
Rip through your chest like I’m tearin’ a page
I’m the villain you fear, unleashed from the cage
Bodies hit the ground like it’s World War Three
Every step I take, you’ll feel it, believe me
Turn your world into chaos, leave it in flames
Blunt force trauma, I ain’t here for no games
Blunt force trauma, crushin’ bones with a smile
Feel your world crackin', no escape from the pile
Skulls get split, blood drips down the street
I’m a goddamn monster, can't face defeat
Blunt force trauma, your world’s gone dark
I'm the bullet in the chamber, ready to spark
You want war? Then bring it, I’m cravin' the fight
Blunt force trauma, fuck around, lose your life!
Pain’s what I deliver, no peace, just fire
Blunt force trauma, I’m your one desire
Hit after hit ‘til your body goes numb
I feast on the violence, you choke on the drum
My fists are the storm, I rain down hate
Blunt force trauma, I control your fate
Crush every bone, leave your soul in the dust
You came for the fight, now you’re chokin' on rust
Blunt force trauma, crushin’ bones with a smile
Feel your world crackin', no escape from the pile
Skulls get split, blood drips down the street
I’m a goddamn monster, can't face defeat
Blunt force trauma, your world’s gone dark
I'm the bullet in the chamber, ready to spark
You want war? Then bring it, I’m cravin' the fight
Blunt force trauma, fuck around, lose your life!
Yeah, blunt force trauma, blood in my veins
I feed on the chaos, I live for the pain!
SychoSide’s reign, no escape from this war
Blunt force trauma, leave ‘em dead on the floor!
CIGARETTES OR DIABETES
feat. 4tun8
feat. 4tun8
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Original track composed for this album. The title and line comes from an online lyric transcription mishearing a line from the "Constant Calamity" lyrics.
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You’re slipping through the cracks again
One foot closer to the edge
The nights you numb, the days you fade
Trying to fix what you never said
You pretend you're in control
But this game has taken its toll
You won’t buy cigarettes or diabetes
But there’s no cure for what's inside of me
You fight the pain but it never leaves
You won’t buy cigarettes or diabetes
I see the fear behind your eyes
Each breath’s a battle you can’t disguise
You turn away from every hand
But you’re sinking deeper in the sand
The truth you bury in your chest
It's a weight that steals your rest
You won’t buy cigarettes or diabetes
But there’s no cure for what's inside of me
You fight the pain but it never leaves
You won’t buy cigarettes or diabetes
You’re counting the days like they’re borrowed time
Walking a line that’s far too fine
Every choice, a step too far
But the scars don’t show who you really are
You won’t buy cigarettes or diabetes
But there’s no cure for what's inside of me
You fight the pain but it never leaves
You won’t buy cigarettes or diabetes
You won’t buy cigarettes or diabetes
But there’s no cure for what's inside of me
You fight the pain but it never leaves
You won’t buy cigarettes or diabetes
You won’t buy
But still you’re losing piece by piece
You won’t buy cigarettes or diabetes
But there’s no cure for what's inside of me
You fight the pain but it never leaves
You won’t buy cigarettes or diabetes
You won’t buy
But still you’re losing piece by piece
You won’t buy cigarettes or diabetes
One foot closer to the edge
The nights you numb, the days you fade
Trying to fix what you never said
You pretend you're in control
But this game has taken its toll
You won’t buy cigarettes or diabetes
But there’s no cure for what's inside of me
You fight the pain but it never leaves
You won’t buy cigarettes or diabetes
I see the fear behind your eyes
Each breath’s a battle you can’t disguise
You turn away from every hand
But you’re sinking deeper in the sand
The truth you bury in your chest
It's a weight that steals your rest
You won’t buy cigarettes or diabetes
But there’s no cure for what's inside of me
You fight the pain but it never leaves
You won’t buy cigarettes or diabetes
You’re counting the days like they’re borrowed time
Walking a line that’s far too fine
Every choice, a step too far
But the scars don’t show who you really are
You won’t buy cigarettes or diabetes
But there’s no cure for what's inside of me
You fight the pain but it never leaves
You won’t buy cigarettes or diabetes
You won’t buy cigarettes or diabetes
But there’s no cure for what's inside of me
You fight the pain but it never leaves
You won’t buy cigarettes or diabetes
You won’t buy
But still you’re losing piece by piece
You won’t buy cigarettes or diabetes
But there’s no cure for what's inside of me
You fight the pain but it never leaves
You won’t buy cigarettes or diabetes
You won’t buy
But still you’re losing piece by piece
You won’t buy cigarettes or diabetes
BETTER THIS WAY
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Re-arranged and adapted from "Demons" from the "Demons Within" album.
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The sad part of it all is that you had more friends when you were the worst version of you
They hovered around when you were barely holding on like vultures drawn to the broken
But the second you started to heal, they faded as if your light blinded them instead of guiding them
You thought they were lifelines but they were only there to feel better about their own emptiness
You liked me broken but I’m better this way
I needed saving but now I’m okay
You vanished when I found my strength
Turns out, I never needed you anyway
You remember when they’d call you every day, checking in like they cared but now it’s silent
Maybe they liked the version of you who was easier to control, easier to relate to in your suffering
The irony of it all is that they didn’t stick around to see you rise, didn’t celebrate your survival
They needed your chaos to feel whole and when it was gone, so were they
You liked me broken but I’m better this way
I needed saving but now I’m okay
You vanished when I found my strength
Turns out, I never needed you anyway
It’s strange how love feels conditional, tied to how much of yourself you give away
You gave them everything, your pain, your doubts, your fears, and they drank it all in
But when you stopped bleeding, when you learned to hold your own, they found no reason to stay
Maybe they were never friends at all, just passengers waiting for the next crash
You liked me broken but I’m better this way
I needed saving but now I’m okay
You vanished when I found my strength
Turns out, I never needed you anyway
You thought healing would bring more connection, more understanding, but it brought distance
They preferred the version of you that cried at midnight, not the one who wakes up with purpose
And now you wonder if the loneliness you feel is worse than the emptiness they brought
But at least this solitude is yours, not something they borrowed for their own comfort
You liked me broken but I’m better this way
I needed saving but now I’m okay
You vanished when I found my strength
Turns out, I never needed you anyway
The hardest part is realizing you don’t miss them, just the idea of what they could’ve been
And maybe it’s better this way, to stand alone with your truth, unbent by their expectations
There’s power in knowing you survived them, not just the pain they clung to
And now you can finally breathe without wondering who’s waiting for you to fall again
They hovered around when you were barely holding on like vultures drawn to the broken
But the second you started to heal, they faded as if your light blinded them instead of guiding them
You thought they were lifelines but they were only there to feel better about their own emptiness
You liked me broken but I’m better this way
I needed saving but now I’m okay
You vanished when I found my strength
Turns out, I never needed you anyway
You remember when they’d call you every day, checking in like they cared but now it’s silent
Maybe they liked the version of you who was easier to control, easier to relate to in your suffering
The irony of it all is that they didn’t stick around to see you rise, didn’t celebrate your survival
They needed your chaos to feel whole and when it was gone, so were they
You liked me broken but I’m better this way
I needed saving but now I’m okay
You vanished when I found my strength
Turns out, I never needed you anyway
It’s strange how love feels conditional, tied to how much of yourself you give away
You gave them everything, your pain, your doubts, your fears, and they drank it all in
But when you stopped bleeding, when you learned to hold your own, they found no reason to stay
Maybe they were never friends at all, just passengers waiting for the next crash
You liked me broken but I’m better this way
I needed saving but now I’m okay
You vanished when I found my strength
Turns out, I never needed you anyway
You thought healing would bring more connection, more understanding, but it brought distance
They preferred the version of you that cried at midnight, not the one who wakes up with purpose
And now you wonder if the loneliness you feel is worse than the emptiness they brought
But at least this solitude is yours, not something they borrowed for their own comfort
You liked me broken but I’m better this way
I needed saving but now I’m okay
You vanished when I found my strength
Turns out, I never needed you anyway
The hardest part is realizing you don’t miss them, just the idea of what they could’ve been
And maybe it’s better this way, to stand alone with your truth, unbent by their expectations
There’s power in knowing you survived them, not just the pain they clung to
And now you can finally breathe without wondering who’s waiting for you to fall again
THE PEOPLE WHO GHOSTED YOU
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Re-arranged and adapted from "If Your Life Was Epic, It Would Have More Soul Than the People That Ghosted You" from the "Demons Within" album.
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You waited for answers but their silence took hold
Watching them slip from your view
They vanished like smoke, leaving you lost and cold
Leaving only shadows of memories you thought you knew
If your life was epic, it would have more soul
Than the people who ghosted you
Their silence tried to take control
But you're stronger than they ever knew
You opened your heart but they turned to dust
Gone without saying goodbye
You gave them your trust but they gave you none
Left you questioning the reasons why
If your life was epic, it would have more soul
Than the people who ghosted you
Their silence tried to take control
But you're stronger than they ever knew
Each time they vanish, you rise again
Stronger with every fall
Their absence won’t break you, you won’t let it win
You’ve learned to stand tall through it all
If your life was epic, it would have more soul
Than the people who ghosted you
Their silence tried to take control
But you're stronger than they ever knew
Ghosts may fade but your spirit remains
You’re writing your own song
The echoes of silence won't drive you insane
You've been strong all along
If your life was epic, it would have more soul
Than the people who ghosted you
Their silence tried to take control
But you're stronger than they ever knew
Their silence fades while you stand in the light
Your heart breaking through
You’ve found your way, shining so bright
And now those ghosts are through
Watching them slip from your view
They vanished like smoke, leaving you lost and cold
Leaving only shadows of memories you thought you knew
If your life was epic, it would have more soul
Than the people who ghosted you
Their silence tried to take control
But you're stronger than they ever knew
You opened your heart but they turned to dust
Gone without saying goodbye
You gave them your trust but they gave you none
Left you questioning the reasons why
If your life was epic, it would have more soul
Than the people who ghosted you
Their silence tried to take control
But you're stronger than they ever knew
Each time they vanish, you rise again
Stronger with every fall
Their absence won’t break you, you won’t let it win
You’ve learned to stand tall through it all
If your life was epic, it would have more soul
Than the people who ghosted you
Their silence tried to take control
But you're stronger than they ever knew
Ghosts may fade but your spirit remains
You’re writing your own song
The echoes of silence won't drive you insane
You've been strong all along
If your life was epic, it would have more soul
Than the people who ghosted you
Their silence tried to take control
But you're stronger than they ever knew
Their silence fades while you stand in the light
Your heart breaking through
You’ve found your way, shining so bright
And now those ghosts are through
WHAT IT FEELS LIKE
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Re-arranged and adapted from "Unexpected Introduction" from the "Not What You Expected" album.
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Now you know what
What it feels like
To feel forgotten
What it feels like
To feel forgotten